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Well I had plans to do my Menu Monday today but sometimes things don't always go as planned. My baby who is usually chipper and fun in the evenings was nothing but sad and fussy tonight.

Eli goes to the babysitter's house all day on Mondays and Tuesdays. We've been in this routine for eight months now and we have all adjusted well. But today I had a major case of mommy guilt.

Tonight, while holding Eli trying to figure out what could possibly be wrong with him I thought about how I wasn't with him between the hours of 8:00 and 5:00 and I had no idea why he was fussy. I felt like if I had been home with him all day I would have known why he was fussy and what was wrong with him.

Most of the time I am perfectly content with our setup, I love my job, I love our babysitter, I love that Eli gets social interaction, I love that I get social interaction, I love that I have projects, and goals, and timelines outside of my normal home routine, but as with anything, there are days filled with doubt, worry and anxiety.

When I have those days I remind myself that I home Wednesday afternoon, Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday. And for that I am thankful.

And I'm almost sure that if I was home with Eli all week I would also have worries, doubts, and anxiety, about our situation. Its just the human nature - at least it's my human nature.

Last year I memorized Romans 12:2 which instructs us to be "transformed by the renewing of your mind". As I was holding Eli tonight, dwelling on the fact that I was failing him because I did not know what was wrong with him I was reminded to renew my mind. Let the lies go, let the doubts go.

I'm still not sure what was wrong with Eli. I'm thinking it was either a tummy ache or teething, but after a lot of cuddling with mom he finally fell asleep.
I'm hoping Eli wakes up feeling better in the morning. It makes me so sad that he can't tell me what is wrong.

I know I will always have doubts and anxiety in life, some of us have it more than others, I am one of those people that has to battle it quite often, but tonight as I was reminded, when I spend time in the word the Lord gently whispers the reminders that I need to hear through His Word. And my mind is renewed.


  1. Sorry for your rough night! I am home with Kal and have worried thoughts as well, so your not alone!

    And Eli is so adorable and sweet so you must be doing something right :) Hope he feels better by the morning!!

  2. Oh, bless you sweetheart. I hope Eli is feeling a tonne better now.

  3. I needed to hear this this morning. Thanks ;)

  4. definitely in that same position...thanks for this reminder!

  5. Not a mom, but I have serious anxiety that I hold onto for far too long the majority of the time. Thanks for this reminder.

  6. Great inspiration to start up my day! Hoping little Eli feels better now.
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  7. I had a similar moment last night in the middle of a very hectic day where I saw my son for all of 2 waking hours. He wasn't sick, it was just my anxiety over not being with him. I was reminded to take captive every thought and make it obedient to Christ, which gave me such peace. God is not a God of anxiety. I love that God gives the Holy Spirit to move in us and His Word to guide us.

  8. Thanks lot for this useful article, nice post


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