I also do that when trying to clean out a closet. I will empty the entire closet and then stare at it, like "What in the world did I just do"? And then leave the pile of stuff sitting there for far too long.
That's how I have felt lately with my thoughts. I have so many thoughts, feelings, emotions, decisions to make, etc going through my mind that I can't make them come together and formulate sentences to express myself at the moment.
I really want to capture my thoughts and the going-on's in my life at this point as we prepare for Eli but I just can't get the words to come together.
Right now everything is baby focused. It seems that everything in our life is working towards getting ready for Eli to be here.
From getting the nursery together, putting up gifts we've been given, washing clothes and blankets, taking back duplicate items, figuring out what we need to get and just talking about how we can't believe we are about to be parents.
Plus in the midst of all the baby getting ready Luke started to have a panic attack that we didn't take birththing classes. As the girl aren't I supposed to be the one who is freaking out about that?!?
The other night I was having some braxton hicks trying to figure out if it was real or not and Luke reminded me that THIS is why we should have taken birthing classes.
Clearly I wasn't in labor, but there is nothing like thinking "am I in labor?" to kick you into high gear. I have a lot to do before little man gets here!!!!
Which brings us to today, I've now got two spreadsheets that I am working on. One is a Personal-To-Do before Eli and one is a Work-To-Do list before Eli. Luke has a similar list he is working on that he started in AUGUST, I'm staring mine the month of Eli's birth. I think it is safe to say that Luke is more of the planner out of the two of us.
So we are on the official "countdown to Eli". Obviously I still have two weeks left till my due date, and I don't think he will come early, but ya never know! I want to be ready when he gets here!
Here is my Week 38 update:
How Far Along: 38 Weeks!!!
Total Weight Gain/Loss: Well all the pregnancy books say I should have quit gaining by this point in pregnancy. I haven't.
Gender: BOY!! Eli Tree
Movement: Definitely less movement. At my appointment on Monday the nurse was a bit concerned so she sent me for a non-stress test at the hospital (my 3rd since getting pregnant, is that some kind of world record?) and everything was fine. They said he looked perfect. So I guess I just have a calm baby? I don't feel like he has ever moved as much as other people say their babies move.
Sleep: I was better this week. Luke said I started snoring. Not sure what that has to do with pregnancy but I never did it before.
What I miss: A good night's rest and being able to eat food without worrying about whats in it.
Cravings: Asian food and meat balls. But not together. And hard boiled eggs.
Symptoms: I've had a lot of cramping this week. It feels just like menstrual cramps. Also my feet started sweeling this week. And Eli's feetsies get all up in my ribs a lot. It is definitely a strange and uncomfortable feeling.
Also, not sure if this considered a "symptom" or not but everytime I see a new-ish baby in a store I start tearing up and want to scoop that baby up and hold him/her (bonus points if it is indeed a boy) and I think they are all adorable. I NEVR thought newborns were cute before I was pregnant. Now I love them ALL. I just can't believe I'm about to have my very own newborn!
Best Moment this week: We had our last shower on Saturday given to us by our church and it was wonderful!
And my favorite husband quote of the week:
When disucssing what to pack for me for the hospital he asked:
"Do you think I should bring my xbox"